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Sunday, November 25, 2007
Damn. School is killing me. Many assignments to hand in, and they're bloody difficult. At the moment I am really really tired. Went clubbing yesterday, and it was fun, but now my back hurts and my head because I had a few beers too many, and I tried to make an iglo in my bed with blankets so I slept in a really wrong angle.
I am kind of dissapointed, because the college I was aiming for ( the whole reason why i got into Havo again) was not about books, because paper isn't fashionable or something. It's about publishing( which i like) but focusing on magazines, e-zines, weblogs and the next big thing.
So, new search then.
But, I've got all the time in the world.


and i want this http://www.pacemaker.net
Kind of a turntable mp3 player.
Bit expensive, but hey.. it's awesome.

mmm, i want a cappuchino. really bad. And I want to play the new game, assasins creed. It looks awesome, and youre a hitman in 1200 or something. That means killing pope's or knight templars and stuff in Jerusalem. :)

listening - digital mystikz
drinking - apple juice
mood - neutral & tired

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Sunday, November 04, 2007
Now I am going to kick back and relax.
Fuck all this stress, I refuse to touch a book again.
I want coffee, and my drawing itch is back.
HURRAY.

But I'm kind of relieved.
Broke up with Rick, cuz I just wasnt in love anymore. Still staying friends so he is not out of my life, because I really like him, just not in THAT way.
Gives me peace of mind.

Bought a really stylish coat, with an enormously high collar. I feel like a total hitman.
Got a medaillon for my b-day, still too lazy to put a pic in it, so now there's only disney confetti inside.

Now I'm going to draw before the itch fades.

copy, out

mood: rebel-ish
music - I, cactus

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Friday, November 02, 2007
I've been reading a book about a shark in the maelstrom's of your being ( kind of a virus in the combination of your mind & body) that eats your memories.
It's a really fucked up book, but amusing none the less.

Maybe there is such a shark in my system.
Friends ask me all the time ' did you remember when you did, when he said this, when we played ninja in class...'
No, i don't.I am a chaotic person, that for sure, and my memory isnt great, but lately I can't remember a thing. Its kind of disturbing, I only remember really outstanding stuff, or random bits of trivia without meaning.
It's like my mind is a sponge and someone wringed it out, leaving only a few drops behind.

My mind was full of memories, feelings, ideas and random other stuff.
Lately it's just blank. I hardly touch a pencil anymore , which i really miss, just drawing for hours, and less and less insane plots to take over the world.
Hardly anything gets a feeling from me.Mostly just some raised eyebrows or ' i am bored.....".

Quite weird. It feels like somebody put me on automatic pilot, and I just CANT FIND THE SWITCH.

So I try to drown myself in books lately ( besides school and social life) so I hardly sleep.
This all sounds pretty emo, but I am not depressed about it. It's just, that I hardly care anymore lately. Everybody talks about all kinds of feelings, and I can hardly remember how such a feeling feels.

Really really disturbing.

I need something drastic. I think I am going to shave my head and become a Buddhist Monk.

copy, out

Music: Vice records remix

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