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Monday, March 24, 2008
Wow. My school is going perfectly fine. This is kind of a wonder for me. Getting really fine grades ( hoping to keep that up) and finish the damn thing.
Which means a new school with classes I probably like, meeting new people and getting a place of my own. New studies and living on my own gives me a lot more freedom, and change. Those are the things in life I mostly crave. If my life is the same too long I fuck up everything really badly just for a change. Not really healthy, I know that, but as long as I'm aware of the turning point I now try to occupy myself with good and healthy changes, before it goes spiralling downwards.
I have to work my ass off for finishing school properly, and I regret it that is affecting my social life. But it is worth it.
Spring's coming up, which means scary exams but also nice and fresh scents in the air, blossoms,skirts and big sunglasses. Which means reading books on park benches, watching people, riding my bike randomly around town , just wandering. Spring and summer mean drawing in the grass with friends, and making campfires and laughing to the morning hours.
I think I have almost never found myself so calm and happy, but I guess that just means that puberty is over ( and so are the raging hormones) which is perfectly fine by me. Ready for the next steps, studying harder , making money ( not spending it responsibly, but just travel a lot)
The only bad thing about an ending puberty is not being able to use it as an excuse when I have a really dirty mind again, and speak it.


listening: bjork&moby - big time sensuality

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